Back then, I was thinking to change. Change my life, my personality into something better. Upgrade my tarbiyyah. Then I listed what changes do I want. 1. ikhtilat 2. wasting time 3. don't underestimate others. 4. discipline and etc. Prayer? I wanted to upgrade my prayer after I had done what I had listed just now.
But, my plan to change was not going well. My first week, i did it well. But the week after, I went back to my old life. Life with no tarbiyyah. I had a deep thought, why I could not istiqamah in this plan. The better life. And at last I figured out something. Thanks to Allah, My Lord.
To change your lives, you need to change your priorities.
salah itself which will live that person the fuel and guidance necessary to turn their life around. Such a person is like a driver whose car is on empty. but insists on finishing the journey before filling up on the gas. The person won't be going anywhere. And in the same way, such people end up in the same place for years : not praying, and not changing their lives. Shaytan challenge them, and won.
And I understood what was going on. What was missing. What was not going well. It was prayer itself. Solat. The priority is My relationship with my Creator. My Lord.
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